Labels: Personal Stuff
argh........
i am going crazy
i even miss those ppl i don really like in the past... but... they still make up a part of my life....
i ought to say hi or sth.....
don feel like sleeping.... lucky tomorrow is thurs..... can sleep till 630 (still early rite)
its sad to know tat u are not needed anymore in ppl's life...... u become transparent or a nusiance....
i am crapping i know.....
i think the word crap comes from thomas crapper u know????
who will thought of inventing a flushing toilet bowl??/????
hahahahaha
okok
being super random now...
going to sleep....
nitex.
my heart is crying.....
Labels: guzheng, NJC...(PAE), Personal Stuff, songs
I didn’t need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you’re frozen
But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone’s looking round
Thinking I’m going crazy
But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open
Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling
But nothing’s greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I’m going crazy, maybe, maybe
But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I....
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open
And it’s draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I’ll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see
I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I....
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I....
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
i feel sosososoosososoos moody todae... seriously......
think i will jus blog about CNY.....
chu yi @ grandma's house fer the whole dae.... the amt of red packets getting more and more pathetic...... reallly.... its sosososo little..... xian..... but steamboat rocks.... hahhaha xp
soso tired also so didnt go ter aunt's house though i wanted to see my cousins and all :) zzz
chu er... friday... nth to do also.... do homework.... go JP watch movie.... cj07.... super lame but touching movie..... the onli thing i like is that space dog(kawaiine)
chu san... went out wit my friend.... went ter lot of places... under those kindof *(^*^% weather.... went ter JE there for his phone but wasnt open.. haha...wasted our time.... then IMM ... walk ter JE.... i mus b mad...... hot... sweating... it mus b really bad for him... who's having sore throat and all... eat medicine!!!!!!! stop smoking!!!!!!! drink water... not liquor....
haha.... i m naggy and boring.... sigh...... yeah... then we went to bugis... sim lim square.... now i finally know where it is.... haha... i m a singaporean.... hahhaha..
he wanted to fix his ipod nano.. but hahah... the person told him ter buy a new one without even finding out wads the prob wit the gadget from him... hahha... pissed off... hahha.. xpxp.. went ter national library.... haha... so shuang!!! took the lift to level 14 and down again... the feeling is like wow!!!! help me destress.... really... i need serious de stressing... haha.. i love that kindof feeling.... but he's a little afraid of heights.... so... yeah.... wanted to take the escalator down one... haha... last time i went there with lijie i still remember her hands were like sweating like mad when we went up by the escalator... hahah... she's really afraid of heights.... i m such a bad gurl eh.... xpp anywaessss.... went to bugis street but teenage cafe/bugis cafe wasnt open.... awww.... i really wanted the cheese cake..... yummy.... went to sakae sushi in the end..... after walking here and there.... hahah... cant make up my mind..... wanted to eat like a pig to de stress miself... but alas... there's no buffet on weekends.... xianzzzzzz...........
hahahahhaha...
after that went to virtualand..... arcade.... i love the drummers!!! hahah... hte are reallhy good at it.... dono how many.. hundreds of combos.... haha.. i m going crazy............... went to watch ah long pte ltd.... haha.... damn funny show....... hahahaha....
seriously.....
chu si... went to my aunt's house... played com... rot.... cuz mi cousins not in.... one sick... fever.... one went shopping..... the other one dono where.... so in the end watch movie again..... that one by jay chou.... seriously lame..... no offence..... secret is much much nicer......
todae.... school reopen..... deadline for that council form.... i think i will run for it.... yep :) surprised eh??? ppl lyk me... hahah....
but todae feel like dying.... guzheng..... its too taxing... plus my mood is super lousy..... i wish i was dead.....................
can someone pls save me????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
i hate this world!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Labels: NJC...(PAE), Personal Stuff, school...
hahahha... very very bored now... jus done my tutorials and lecture stuff... questions but haven finished doing....arghhhhhhhhhhhh.....
y my life always lyk tat???????? ppl ard me are soso hardworking..... even b4 the lecturer finsh teeaching some ppl have already done all their tutorial questions already.... stressed..... hahhahaha... watching iswak 2 now... really funny.... hahahhaha....
don feel like sleeping now already... hahha
Labels: NJC...(PAE), Personal Stuff
watching iswak 2 now.. hahahahahha damn funny show... hahahahhha... forcing my eyes open....
anywaes.... my house FINALLLYYYYY have BROADBAND already!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOTTSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ahahahahhahahaa... finnaalllyyy. gth dial up...hahhahahhahah.... anywae... lecture started already.... todays the second day.... there;s onli like 1 lecture... maths... the teacher's laberring some chim stuff.... sigh... i am bacoming more and more stupid nowadays.... argh.... nvm...
o levels result will be out really sooonnn... next friday i heard..... very scared... i don think i will do well at all... cuz go library didnt study... was reading comics.... sigh.... anyway... its over... i cant do anything about it..
yeah and after that lecture it was ard 9 plus 10....then we were supposed to be dismissed at 1... haha but very bored in school so we, one group of ex nanhuarians sneaked out of school thru a broken fence beside the rubbish bin... haahahahahha damn comical.... yep... went to nnhs play... shoot... talk to teachers.... juniors... hahaha...
the onli thing i really really missed was the netball court and the gz room onli... hahahhahaha... cuz njc don have them..........
tomorrow's time table soo packed.... gotta sleep soon... if not i will get panda eyes......
and also i have to be mentally prepared to kena scolding from all the teachers...... for sneaking out of school.... hahahaha...yep... they called nanhua... hahaha... good luck to me and all nanhuarians... as well as ppl from rvhs.... hahahhaha.... all whites....
nanhua still the same........... but funny.... alot of teachers left the school..... lee boon kit... mr chow...... hmmm... wad happened
????????
anywaes.... the washroom/wc/toilet in nanhua is the BEST!!!!
look at njc's.... flooding with shit.................hahahahahhahahahhaha
i am crazy!
Labels: i love astrology, Personal Stuff, work
YOU NEED SOME CARE
If you've been neglecting a loved one, this is your chance to fix what's broken, Scorpio, since the Moon enters into Leo early in the morning. You'll want to focus on finding a plan, a goal that you can work towards as you steadily climb to the top. Venus in Aquarius meets up with Chiron too, so your home could be needing some tender loving care, be prepared to crack open the toolbox and patch things up, but don't be afraid to call an expert if your in over your head!
online again... don feel like sleeping even though i have to wake up early tomorrow... haha... go shopping with linyan and yuzheng.... hmmm... toking about them... they are my primary school mates... really close... tat's y after 4 years we can still get together... feels good to know that i will be seeing them real soon... my mood's geeting better and i finally feel miself again.. starting to talk... with foongwei and others... feels great!!! went shopping with lijuan today... went shopping for presents... i haven got my pay yet i am spending like mad... haha... don dare let me mum know... she will kill me...
i realise that i have problems with myself... my relationship didnt work out for the past 2 years or so... i am cursed... no one stayed with me for more than like say... 2 to 3 months... the longest since sec 2 till now was like 5 months??? or lesser... i miss you!!!!!!!!! can we be together again???? like how we used to be... i really regret wad i did that time... really.. actually during art i really wanted to open my mouth and reply... but... i jus dono how... i am really sorry for making u cry... really sorry.... if u ever read this... i am really really sorry... can i hav u back in my life??? i don wan us to be jus friends... no... i cant do it... i wan more... pls...
i totally agree with the essay... the o lovels one... about the 5 balls in life...
可口可乐的总裁戴申先生曾经在一次演讲当中，将工作，家庭，健康，朋友和心灵比喻成五个球。 他说工作像个橡皮球， 坠下地还会反弹； 其余都是玻璃球，失手落地就会破裂，就算修补后也会留下裂痕，永远不会恢复原状。 人生犹如一场抛球的杂技表演，我们必须集中精神，顾所有抛上空中的球， 无论是高度， 速度, xx du huo shi jian dou de zhua de hen zhun, bu rong xu you si hao cha zuo...
very long la... so typr part of it... the more meaningful part of it... it says that...
life revolves around five things... in that essay... the author described them as balls... 5 balls... work, family, health, friends and feelings/emotions. thw ball for working is made up of rubber whereas the others, glass... once broken, no matter how one mend it... the scar will still be there... nth can make it disappear...
Scorpio and Cancer
When Cancer and Scorpio come together, the resulting relationship brings together two Signs of great emotional depth. Signs such as these often combine well, each partner's strengths balancing the other's weaknesses. These Signs have a strong sexual attraction, and when they are together the temperature in the room tends to rise! Cancer and Scorpio have a great deal in common which will keep their relationship strong.
Cancer and Scorpio enjoy working together toward acquisition and create a comfortable living space: Cancer wants security and Scorpio wants power. Both of these Signs are about domestic goods and resources, including stocks, bonds and inheritances. They are both passionate and deeply emotionally touched by all aspects of life. They complement each other because Cancer and Scorpio are both concerned with the home and both have fierce loyalty to the family group.
Cancer is ruled by the Moon and Scorpio is ruled by Mars and Pluto. This combination is very intense, thanks to Pluto's influence, but it's a good balance of masculine and feminine energy. The two Signs coming together form the basic foundation of human relationships -- The Moon's nurturing love and Mars' passion. The Moon and Mars go well together; The Moon is about growth and rebirth , and Mars is about the passion of romance. Scorpio is smoldering and intense, and Cancer is attracted to this intensity; in turn, Scorpio enjoys the adoration inherent in Moon-ruled Cancer.
Cancer and Scorpio are both Water Signs. Both are very deep Signs and like the ocean, you can never really see the bottom. Scorpio and Cancer emotionally draw further and further into themselves, then suddenly roar back with intimidating force. Cancer and Scorpio are strongly loyal to each other, a product of their mutual desire for emotional security. But while Cancer is fixated on the family and home Scorpio is more focused on the undercurrents of life. Scorpio can show Cancer beyond the literal surface, while Cancer can teach Scorpio not to fear their emotions. Additionally, Scorpio appreciates the Cancerian practicality and Cancer enjoys Scorpio's jealousy -- it proves that Scorpio really loves and cherishes them.
Cancer is a Cardinal Sign and Scorpio is a Fixed Sign. Once they have a common wish, it will be realized due to their efforts. However, if their opinions clash, look out! Cancer will be the first to instigate an argument and Scorpio the last to finish it. It often appears that Cancer will get its own way and be the dominant partner, but that isn't always the actual conclusion. Sometimes Scorpio won't even agree to disagree, although they might pretend to give in. Both partners are not beyond using emotional manipulation to get revenge. It's important for these partners to discuss what is truly important to them so they can reach an equitable compromise. Once Scorpio and Cancer learn to trust one another and believe in each other, they are a pair that can achieve almost anything through sheer determination. The relationship will only fail if the two partners truly cannot overcome their opinionated, stubborn sides.
The best aspect of the Cancer-Scorpio relationship is their powerful teamwork when they agree on their goals. When Cancer realizes that Scorpio is there for the long haul and that the partnership is emotionally productive, this relationship can blossom. Their mutual determination makes theirs a relationship of formidable strength.
Scorpio and Pisces
When Scorpio and Pisces come together they enjoy a splendid union. The two Signs share the same Element, Water, and thus have a good understanding of each other. Scorpio is very deep and covert, often caught up in their own secret plans, while Pisces is idealistic and looks for the nuances of a situation. However, Pisces also has a tendency to withdraw into their own mind, and can forgive Scorpio for being mysterious or withdrawn at times. Both Signs are intuitive and in touch with the subtleties of human interaction. Scorpio can help Pisces fulfill dreams and ambitions -- to turn ideas into reality. The Scorpion will provide a steadfast foundation for the relationship to revolve around, and the more ephemeral and intuitive Fish will become entangled in Scorpio's web. In return, Pisces offers gentleness, kindness, and sympathy which Scorpio admires and appreciates. Scorpio is interested in certain material comforts and intense emotional dramas, and at times cannot understand the simplistic, charitable attitude of Pisces. Their long-term aspirations can be completely unalike. Once they can understand and overcome this difference, theirs will be a very rewarding relationship.
Scorpio follows the Planets Mars and Pluto, and Pisces is ruled by Jupiter and Neptune. Mars is the ancient God of War, and Scorpio is testimony to its aggressive, courageous, daring, and sometime belligerent influences. When combined with Pluto, this hot Planet becomes cyclical and symbolizes rebirth and new beginnings. Scorpio is able to withstand a great deal of abuse and bounce back, but the Scorpion is also able to dish out this energy in spades! Pisces is also ruled by Jupiter. This represents philosophy, expansion and excesses. The Neptunian influence gives Pisces a dreamy aura and a love for popular culture and media. This dreamy energy softens Scorpio's hard edges. The nature of this planetary combination offers a complementary relationship, drenched in emotional intrigue and endowed with a real celestial bond. However, Scorpio must be careful not to cramp the floating Fish, as Pisces will suffocate under too many demands.
Scorpio and Pisces are both Water Signs. Generally they're very compatible, as Water is a tangible, physical entity and both appreciate this property. Pisces is born to connect mankind, and when they come together with Scorpio's intrigue and tenacity there is no stronger bond. In addition, Scorpio has an absolutist view of life; everything is either golden or tarnished. Pisces can help to open up multiple possibilities, rather than a single focus. Scorpio may tire of Pisces' instability, and Pisces may in turn feel that Scorpio is self-absorbed and insensitive to their needs. It will be comparatively easy for them to find a compromise.
Scorpio is a Fixed Sign and Pisces is a Mutable Sign. Scorpio tends to be focused on one project at a time, but Pisces likes to move from project to project as the feeling takes them. Pisces can easily become a part of Scorpio's pastimes and projects. In turn, Scorpio needs to give Pisces the freedom to enjoy personal interests. Pisces can show Scorpio that flexibility is sometimes better than a stringent determination, and that compromise without struggle can pay off. Scorpio and Pisces feed off of each other's energy well, and should be compatible in romance or business.
The best aspect of the Scorpio-Pisces relationship is their similar emotional natures. They complement and harmonize with one another very well. The overall empathy and commitment these two signs value in a relationship is what will keep the ties strong and long lasting between the Scorpion and Fish.
Scorpio and Scorpio
When two Scorpions come together, it is a fierce tempest of intense passion. Both are obsessed with one another and the relationship may progress more quickly than most. Personal relations are positively steamy but, to the equal and opposite extreme, disputes will also be frenetically powerful. This relationship can either be the greatest experience in the world or a destruction of the partners involved. The merging of two Scorpions can bring out the best in both of you, each using their emotional and intuitive natures to love their partner very deeply. Determination and strong will keep these two together. As long as both partners are committed to the relationship, no external forces can intrude. These two Power Signs can work well together as long as they learn to channel their energy constructively -- no easy task for Scorpio.
Scorpio is ruled by the Planets Mars and Pluto. Mars is the ancient God of War, always charging forward, passionate, aggressive and courageous. Pluto is the higher octave of Mars and controls the power, destruction and rebirthing elements of the Scorpio-Scorpio relationship. These two planets together allow the Scorpion to bounce back after a tragic loss. Fortunate for the Scorpion, as your intense passions inflate the importance and loss of everything.
Scorpio is a Water Sign, thus their first reaction to any situation is a deep emotional response. The greatest asset for a Scorpio is to tame the vengeful or vindictive side of their intuitive personalities, and to celebrate the extreme ups and quickly forget the downs. Come out and say what you really want! If you keep your feelings well-hidden, they could eat away at the stable structure that holds you and your partner so securely. Because you are both devoted, jealousy may become an issue. Be strong, brave Scorpio, and overcome this hurdle together!
Scorpio is a Fixed Sign. Two Fixed Signs together can take turns filling each other's cup of new ideas. As a team, you get things done! This is a good combination for business partners as well as personal relationships. Together, you have a wonderful mind for investments and shared resources. Scorpio is certain to investigate thoroughly before moving on toward the next brilliant idea. You will have no trouble finishing a project once the both of you are dedicated to its completion.
The best aspect of the Scorpio-Scorpio relationship is the intensity of love that this couple can feel. You are very goal-oriented, and your shared power makes you an unconquerable duo! Utter devotion insures that this relationship will continue for a long time.
This is the sign with the most intense willpower to reach for the stars. Properly motivated you are invincible. You have the ability for regeneration, creating new heights for unrealized potential.
The greatest of saints and the most evil villains have developed under this sign. The direction of will is vital. You are the perfectionist always striving for the next level. You excel in areas of research and investigation. Your thoroughness and attention to every detail often makes it difficult to share the workload with others. You hate inefficiency within yourself and can not tolerate it in others. Your adherence to the truth is admirable, however your ability to filter it to the sensitive ear leaves something to be desired, as you can often leave others shaken by your words.
You are a romantic with a powerful sex drive that when allowed to go full force can become totally out of control. These drives, when tempered and channeled toward higher and uplifting intentions will lead to enlightenment. The evolved Scorpio is capable of sacrificing everything to defend the truth.
Your eyes are deep and penetrating. Your magnetism draws many toward you and your intuition guides you to what you need to know from others . Yet you yourself are very secretive . Being a fixed water sign you have a great capacity to hold the depth of your own emotional intensity. Mars gives you the drive for action, Pluto maintains the unwavering will for transformation and with Uranus exalted in Scorpio, there is the potential for release allowing the spirit to rise to a higher consciousness.
Labels: holiday of a sec 4 girl, Personal StuffYour EQ is 100 
50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!
51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.
71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.
91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.
111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.
131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.
150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.haha...my EQ is onli 100...no wonder...i dono wadever... going off for movie!!! THANKS TO JOCELYN!!! MY IDOL!!! heihei...feel so damn honoured.idol treating me to movie leh...but is shrek3 quite silly la...lol... working now...(actually slacking again...haha) haiz...thinking of her now and him too...wish i could hav them back in my life...................
