this week is enrichment week... its the last day edi.... awwww.... next week lessons will resume... and on tuesday there's the monstrous tests.... chem and econs.... argh..... haven even studies la..... in nanhua never study never mind one... won fail.... but in nj even if u got study u may still fail.... so imagine if i don study.... i will get a big fat zero... ( i don wan.... sobbs...)
my body is like aching..... dono isit becux of my sleeping position yesterdae or becuz of the ice skating.... but feel so shuang during ice skating....... ice skating is fun!!!!! how i wish we dont have physica va yesterdae... then we can jus skate for the whole day.... ahhhh... how good is that.... anywae... the phy va is screwed up la... so hard.... we got the concepts right but somehow we missed out some things.... and went minusing off some extra stuff.... in the end its like we got weird illogical answers.... haha.... nvm.... mr yap say mayb there will be moderation.. (keep my fingers crossed xp) there's the sexuality talk todae..... love language.... 4 types of love.... and some other stuff.... for the whole thing i jus kept doodling and munch on my fake pocky.... ate two packets..... feel like a pig man.... i should lose weight.... not eat.... tomorrow got guzheng performance...... sian.... have to report to school at 915 and 10pm then can go home..... go so early jus to tune the guzheng ... dotz. -_-''' y not jus teach everyone how to tune and life may be alot easier... stupid PRCs... slacker la.... they don like ter help.... lazy bums....
anywae... went for the elegent universe thing... thought it was a lecture or sth.. but its a video thing... jus sit there till my whole body ached like mad... but its quite interesting. really. about the theory of relativity and the string theory.... hmmm.... the scientists are really brainy to come out with these kindof theories which makes sense.... not like chemistry.... weird ppl coming up with weird stuff... and there r so many anormalous(is that how u spell it??) data and coming up with even MORE theory to explain it..... don like chem..... i love physics =) but its reallly hard... look at albert einstein... spent 10 years to come up with the theory of relativity... and spent so much time of his life finding the theory of Everything... i really admire him... he is the best.... genius.... ppl should think of ways to clone albert einstein... not sheeps.... dolly.... haha.... really then see a live einstein.. omg... how cool is that... he can finish his dreams..... and discover more exciting stuff.... haha....
yeah.... after the elegent universe we tried to have a class dinner.... but ended up postponing it... nvm.... long story.... so me. pf and yy went to mad jacks... nice... the food.... yumyum :) xp i don care about gaining weight already... its torturous... went home and watch tv ...... play com... wash shoes..... tired la.... aching la my body.... *yawn* =o i shall go sleep.... sian.... tomorrow is good fridae.... eveyone's enjoying their hols.... not me... i hate njcogz!!!!!!!!!!!!!! waste of time la...... this performance really sux.. the teacher sux... don wan me in that song should say earlier.... and should jus let me off when i said i don want to play... i m not someone who can play the bass.... giving the beat and all those stuff is not me.... the teacher knows tat..... i nv play those b4.... and i have the tendency to play faster then the normal speed and my speed is quite unstable!!! how can she do this to me......................... of course i look blur la....... i don know when to come in....
nvm.....
shall go and sleep...zzzz...
fine.... shall go read and try to remember the formulae....
there was guzheng yesterday..... sad case la me... too lousy trying to cope with some rythm which i dono.... then the teacher FINALLY took me out from that song....ahhhhh.... then there was one senoir who was taken out wanted to play ju hua tai so i jus say i don wanna play that also.... then now i m left with onli yao zu wu qu!!!!! yay!!!! but quite wasted la..... i spend so much time practising in school..... for mei gui and ju hua.... nvm...... i don care much about this performance anyway.... too last minute..... she also didnt even bother to correct me when i went wrong.... i have to realise it onli when i suddenly played one extra note.... S***** la she.......
how i wish i can propose to change the teacher..... and yesterdae was the first time she wanted ppl to play one by one..... dotz..... she should ask ppl to play one by one at the start... not when the performance is nearing.... and i think she did that onli becuz weilong told her about it.... follow(copy) yin lao shi..... i really don like her... and her craps... she damn waste time.... when she start her talks and lame jokes everyone will be like daoing her or like laugh forcefully.... then when no one laugh she will be like-- laugh leh... not funny meh??? y u all so cool one....-- wth la.... its not even funny.... if u cut some of ur jokes maybe we can go home and sleep earlier or play or wadever......
do u ever have that kind of feeling where at first, this person is really nice.... seemed really thoughtful or sth like that later on that person will sort of show her true colours accidentally and u feel so sort of "cheated"... my god.... i hate pretence...... hypocrites....... jus play along with them.... and that makes urself a hypocrite as well.... isnt it so?????
i feel so bad talking about it... cuz ppl may think that there's sth really wrong with me for critising such a nice person..... but from my perspective.... she is not that innocent at all..... there's a motive....
friends come and go and come back again..... good friends come and go and may never come back.... best friend come and go and never come back.....
u don have to be nice to everyone around u to have a good friend.... u will end up with more friends.... but does it feel good???? no way... (that's for me...) yes... i agree that when it breaks its really heart breaking.... but its jus hard to describe...... argh..... its really hard to get the message across..... don pretend... jus b urself.... u will find someone who will accept u.... diff ppl have diff taste... u don have to work so hard..... its ugly to some ppl.... that u are not using ur heart to have a good relationship but actions.... superficial acts... to deceive naive ppl.... to deceive ppl who cant see thru u..... jus be urself.......
i know i sound innocent and naive..... u might even say that the world outside is like that.... accept it.... wadeva.... i m living in my own world....... don ppl see the meaning of life???? make urself happy..... don do thinngs because u want to be popular or to seem to b a really nice person.... lets face it... no matter how nice a person is... there will b another side of him/her which is hideous..... so jus be urself!!!!! then maybe more ppl will accept u..... not jus think that u are vvvvv nice and pleasant and a good friend... u urself will spoil that image after a period of time..... the fox tail or wadever will eventually show.... even if it doesnt.... r u going to act and pretend for the rest of ur life????? u r torturing urself.....
i m not specifically talking about a person but a group of ppl out there in the world..... be urself..... many ppl hates hypocrites....
friendship.......... we used to be such good friends :) unlike the situation now.... its your birthdae today..... i miss u sosososososos much.... u said- lol. u still rmb my birthdae...- dotz... how can i forget??? ur r always i my heart.......... causing pain..... happry birthdae :) may god bless u and happiness follow u wherever u r... whichever jc u r in.... :)
now is the time when i should reflect about my past.....
this whole hols sux like hell..... mon to thursday gz.... sat, todae, gz... no time to play or do homework at all.... i really envy tiffany... she's on vacation edi..... to italy... so good.... gz this year also have some activities out of singapore... but to peneng onli... due to the costing.... is njc this poor???
argh.... i haven study for anything yet!!!
i am gonna die soon.... normally i don study for test at all... cuz last time in nanhua got test also have ppl never study... but now in njc... EVERYONE will be studying... i am sure of tat....
i haven even do anything about the self study..... for WEP.... i m going crazy.... hope everything will turn out okay after the performance....... xian... i am actually performing on good friday.... how unlucky is tat??? everyone is having time to study and doing homework...... and even play.... wth la.... i haven even memorise the songs yet... i m so dead.... (wish i wasnt a slacker....)
i m so tired.........................
