fine.... shall go read and try to remember the formulae....
there was guzheng yesterday..... sad case la me... too lousy trying to cope with some rythm which i dono.... then the teacher FINALLY took me out from that song....ahhhhh.... then there was one senoir who was taken out wanted to play ju hua tai so i jus say i don wanna play that also.... then now i m left with onli yao zu wu qu!!!!! yay!!!! but quite wasted la..... i spend so much time practising in school..... for mei gui and ju hua.... nvm...... i don care much about this performance anyway.... too last minute..... she also didnt even bother to correct me when i went wrong.... i have to realise it onli when i suddenly played one extra note.... S***** la she.......
how i wish i can propose to change the teacher..... and yesterdae was the first time she wanted ppl to play one by one..... dotz..... she should ask ppl to play one by one at the start... not when the performance is nearing.... and i think she did that onli becuz weilong told her about it.... follow(copy) yin lao shi..... i really don like her... and her craps... she damn waste time.... when she start her talks and lame jokes everyone will be like daoing her or like laugh forcefully.... then when no one laugh she will be like-- laugh leh... not funny meh??? y u all so cool one....-- wth la.... its not even funny.... if u cut some of ur jokes maybe we can go home and sleep earlier or play or wadever......
do u ever have that kind of feeling where at first, this person is really nice.... seemed really thoughtful or sth like that later on that person will sort of show her true colours accidentally and u feel so sort of "cheated"... my god.... i hate pretence...... hypocrites....... jus play along with them.... and that makes urself a hypocrite as well.... isnt it so?????
i feel so bad talking about it... cuz ppl may think that there's sth really wrong with me for critising such a nice person..... but from my perspective.... she is not that innocent at all..... there's a motive....
friends come and go and come back again..... good friends come and go and may never come back.... best friend come and go and never come back.....
u don have to be nice to everyone around u to have a good friend.... u will end up with more friends.... but does it feel good???? no way... (that's for me...) yes... i agree that when it breaks its really heart breaking.... but its jus hard to describe...... argh..... its really hard to get the message across..... don pretend... jus b urself.... u will find someone who will accept u.... diff ppl have diff taste... u don have to work so hard..... its ugly to some ppl.... that u are not using ur heart to have a good relationship but actions.... superficial acts... to deceive naive ppl.... to deceive ppl who cant see thru u..... jus be urself.......
i know i sound innocent and naive..... u might even say that the world outside is like that.... accept it.... wadeva.... i m living in my own world....... don ppl see the meaning of life???? make urself happy..... don do thinngs because u want to be popular or to seem to b a really nice person.... lets face it... no matter how nice a person is... there will b another side of him/her which is hideous..... so jus be urself!!!!! then maybe more ppl will accept u..... not jus think that u are vvvvv nice and pleasant and a good friend... u urself will spoil that image after a period of time..... the fox tail or wadever will eventually show.... even if it doesnt.... r u going to act and pretend for the rest of ur life????? u r torturing urself.....
i m not specifically talking about a person but a group of ppl out there in the world..... be urself..... many ppl hates hypocrites....
